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By Jacob Howard, Published 12/05/2019

View the Editor’s Notes, Updated 12/05/2019

I’m the site’s owner and admin, Jacob Howard. I make no money on this website, nor will I ever. I also won’t take donations to keep it running.


Some Quick Background

I met the Recovery in college, the Fall of 2011. As an actively seeking Christian, I was primed for finding a group of Christians who were serious about their faith.

The Recovery baited me with Jesus, the Bible, and talk of oneness of the church by means of the one Spirit of God. Then they started switching our devotion over to a man named Witness Lee, following him and his teachings only. Our “oneness” had nothing to do with God keeping us one; it was about Witness Lee.

I left the Recovery in 2017 for a few months, troubled by the clear deification of this man Witness Lee, but I eventually went back because I feared all of the discipline from God that the Recovery had convinced me was biblical.

Eventually, the Lord gave me the absolute clarity that I needed to leave the Recovery. My wife and I left in June/July of 2018, and we haven’t looked back.


Why This Website?

Still loving the people in the Recovery, my wife and I were weighed down with a heavy burden of helping others to leave. So right away I originally created thelordsrecovery.org (by the way, using .com and .net also redirect to the .org site).

I wrote the Thread, put together a bare-minimum website, and left it alone. I didn’t touch it for one year.

Then I hid myself from Christians, from all of social media, and from the Recovery. I moved out of state and told no one in the Recovery where I lived. I ignored this site and the compassion God had given me for people in the Recovery who still needed to leave.

Then God woke me up! I was nudged by the Spirit after a year to come back to this website and take it seriously. To keep ministering the truth. To still meet with God’s people. To grow in Christ.


A Little About Me

I’m a fallible man (arguably a child; I still have my Pokemon toys), and I have countless examples of times I have been wrong about something, specifically about biblical teaching. I’m always learning. Did I mention I’m learning? And I’m only interested in learning and growing, not pretending everything’s already been “recovered” by some other fallible man.

I love Jesus Christ. He is perfect in every way. He saved me by dying on the cross for my sins and resurrecting from the grave as the spotless Lamb of God! He’s forgiven me for my sins! I follow Him! He’s the only man I’ll ever give myself to!

Jesus is the Light. Only He has the truth; He is the truth. I’m learning to follow Him, and I’m growing in Him.

While I’ve got some things to say on here, don’t take my word for it. Take God’s.

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Terry Risenhoover
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Terry Risenhoover

I knew Witness Lee and several of his children. He was not the Minister of the age or an apostle, Virttually all of his teachings good and bad come from others. He was a seriously flawed man who made serious errors in his teachings and especially in his practices. The Word clearly teaches there is none righteous no not one. Not Lee, Not Nee and not me, May the Lord have mercy on all who are distracted away from Christ by the teachings of men.

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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Thanks for sharing, Terry! Love your powerful statement about the Lord having mercy on all of us. We’re so easily distracted away! I most definitely need His mercy; I’m helpless without it.

Elizabeth Early
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Elizabeth Early

Is it possible to expand your list of ‘Christians on Campus’ to include other countries, not just in the US? There is a big facility owned by them in my town, and I wonder if they are having more success elsewhere in the world, fresh places where their former bungle-ups did not occur!!!

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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Hey there, Elizabeth! Every item on that list, I and others have personally researched and validated to ensure it was Recovery-associated. Right now, we’re working through the Thread’s 5th item’s explanation; I’m working with my team of editors to ensure it’s concise, helpful, and accurate. That’s taking a while, but I’ve been getting tons of help on research and editing. It’s been a wild ride! As soon as we’re done with that, we’re going to keep adding items to the list. I will need help validating clubs from other countries that use languages I can’t speak or read, but getting… Read more »

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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Elizabeth, another thing — other contributors to this site have been emailing me different research, edits, etc. If you happen to have any information regarding these clubs on hand, please feel free to email me at jacobhobsonhoward@gmail.com. I’ll take all the help I can get. Thank you!

Deb
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Deb

Thank you for this site! I’ve recently left the Recovery after joining in college and being part of it for 5 years. It took me almost a year to leave. In many ways I feel like I’m rediscovering myself and my walk with the Lord. I feel a little bit set adrift in some ways but I’m really enjoying being with other believers and ways of worship too!
You guys aren’t alone in this walk!

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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Deb, thank you for the encouragement! It’s nice to know others have been through what we’ve been through. It can certainly feel like it’s all isolating, but that’s obviously not true. I’m rediscovering my walk with the Lord, too, but it’s been *really* awesome so far 🙂 He’s been very kind and gentle with me, and getting into His Word with Him has been a lot of fun!

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Guest

Thanks for you hard work on this thread. I too left the recovery once I started to notice a few things that didn’t align with scripture. I got saved in college a couple of months before I even joined Christians on Campus / Lords Recovery movement. I had read basically the entire New Testament with the exception of parts of Revelation (decided to read Old Testament first). I learned and grew in my faith purely from the Word of God and teachings from the Holy Spirit. Understood the core teaching of the Gospel; Jesus came to save a sinful humanity… Read more »

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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Thank you for sharing this! I’m very glad the Lord gave you the discernment to notice what you did. It doesn’t make any sense for Recovery members to have to deceptively hide their full ministry. If it’s as valuable as they believe it to be, it shouldn’t be hidden. And that is very telling.

Fellow Christian
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Fellow Christian

Amen, our vertical relationship with the Triune God is of the utmost importance. How goes your horizontal relationship Jacob?

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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If by horizontal fellowship you’re referring to how I relate to God through His people in His Church, it’s awkward during this time of COVID and continually needs improvement, but my horizontal relationship with God has been awesome.

I’ve got a few close brothers in Christ I meet with regularly, and I’ve been meeting on Sundays with congregations to find a core group that I can fellowship with.

And, on top of that, I’ve had family in town, and they love the Lord! So I’ve been truly blessed 😉 Thanks for asking!

Confused Christian
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Confused Christian

I was brought into the recovery in 2008 while my life was going through transition. I was initially uneasy but the members were so kind and genuine. They also had that article from CRI that helped me rationalize that it was OK. However, I have had concerns… Everyone has been kind to me but…. I don’t know how to explain it. The level of regard for the ministry bothers me. I’m certainly not a Bible scholar and I also know that no one is going to be perfect but there are a few things that have stood out- for example,… Read more »

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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I know exactly what you’re going through. We just moved back to Arkansas and are trying to find a church home. There is definitely much to be wary about, but we feel the conviction to gather with believers who let Jesus Christ alone be their Head. Don’t give up. Praying for you! Email me at jacobhobsonhoward@gmail.com. Dissension welcome, and nothing will offend me!

David Vizzi
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David Vizzi

Thank you. All I can say is thank you. I am in college and have been a part of this organization for the last three years. And it’s funny, because even one Google search about the Lord’s Recovery will show you everything you need to convince you to get out. But they conditioned me, even if subtly and indirectly, to not question anything they say. But I almost accidentally stumbled upon your site and I just read so many of the concerns you listed and said to each one “Wow, come to think of it, that’s pretty true.” My decision… Read more »

Jacob Howard (Site Owner)
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David, You’re most certainly welcome! It brings me joy to hear this website helped you. I thank God you found it! It’s hard to know motive and intent, but my personal belief is that most of these people are just regurgitating the same lies, honestly believing they are in the right movement and doing the right things. I believe at least most of these people to just be misguided. I believe that’s what I was. But that misguidance is neither an excuse nor justification. I was very depressed when I left because I had given up all of my community… Read more »

Henry
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Henry

You should consider reaching out to the “Cultish” podcast. They’ve discussed groups as intense as the Manson family and as “tame” as Oneness pentecostals (which the Lord’s Recovery would be closer to). They seem to truly care about outreach and the facts and not sensationalizing things. Just a thought!